Yes life is short, and with so many distractions in life, one rarely takes a pit stop, and stops to smell the roses, or look back on what their year of life is all about. So I decided to stop, take a moment, turn around , smell the coffee ( roses not in bloom in the winter months) instead, and sipped the wonderful full bodied morning elixir. Wonderful!!! Soothing!!! Nice were only some of the adjectives I pondered in the moment.
Then I thought of all the things that I so enjoy in my life and yes this was definitely one of them!!
Like most people lost in day dreams, my thoughts continued to cascade thru my lobe, and soon I thought of this time last year . Then in the next moment I thought to myself...what am I most thankful for? That is when the floodgates opened,,, and I saw that year and how deeply I was blessed. Now I'm sure you too have much to be thankful for, and I'm sure you have been blessed also, but can you count how many miracles you have seen or experienced in one year, or how bout a lifetime? Well this is what struck me . So many miracles. Is it any wonder I stand in awe of how mighty God is? How I stand amazed at how he loves me? I feel as though I am an insignificant grain of sand, but to God, I'm precious and valuable. I'm so blown away by his faith full care of me; his little speck of creation. Being a parent myself, and yet being his child I get a glimpse of something that I am sure is much greater than me.
The 2011 year has come and passed, but I would like to share a bit of it with the world I live in.
Mostly I just want to share my joy in a world that could use a dose of it.
I began this year in the same way as many years before. By that I mean I spent it with a seed of hope in my heart. Hoping that it would be a better year than the one before. You see for years I have spent my days in agony. Pain wasn't my friend, it was my mountain. Each day I would struggle to climb it even if for a moment by moment basis. My spinal cord was impinged from a neck injury, and my limbs, neck , hands and head ached constantly. My world grew smaller, as well as my mobility. In previous years right after the accident, I was forced to give up my business, and well I think a part of my self- disillusioned identity as well. You see I have worked all my life, and well health issues weren't new to me, but I was just keepin on keepin on, and found that work is where I saw my value. Well God does have a way of peelin the layers off of the delusion. My work doesn't give me value, God does. Gee he had already cured me of RSD the year before my accident...something that no man or doctor could do prior. The RSD had colored my world with unmanageable pain for over 7 yrs. ....and I was just getting back into life filled with exuberant joy when the accident happened. No I didn't cause the accident, however I did feel life was pushing me, because it was just before Christmas, and I was just finishing up the rush. I was so excited to have Christmas in our newly built home ( post hurricane damage).Being homeless for two years difficult. Lesson from God? I giveth, and I taketh away, and I rebuild it better, then it is me to be attatched too, not stuff. O and by the way God does answer prayers. Prayed for better job for hubbym and yes it was answered!! Soon it was time to leave it. Hubby was blessed with new job, but it meant relocating.
A few more years pass by. Dr.s , injections, but dead ends, and still nothing, no resolve. Legal proceedings continue and still nothing. Then 2010 came. I stood in the Dr.s office. ...as the words fell out of her mouth....I was in total disbelief. .... "You have a brain tumor" . Ok now that explains how weird I feel, just another mountain on top of another mountain. I think I need some spiked shoes for this expedition!!! I dug my heels into my faith even more. I needed strength, and I was all out, so God gave me some of his, and whispered to me.... "I will give the victory". I believed what he said to me, and he did just that. Within weeks he gave me the victory....and to him be the Glory! Legal matters were settled, and a great sigh of relief imbued. With that all said and done, it still left a few things unresolved. How do I get my neck fixed? Insurances just didn't want to pay? God hadn't forgotten my need, he just wanted me to keep on leaning on him.
Miracle two.... He sent a doctor who fixed my neck. His words "I'm giving your life back to you" will always be etched into my heart. He did just that. How grateful I truly am. There are no words that can convey the depth of my gratitude. I have no neck, arm, pain any longer. It feels as though my neck was never messed up. Incredible!!! As for my brain tumor? Well Dr. says whatever you are doing keep on doing it. He doesn't realize who is doing it. The tumor is still there but it isn't growing as fast as they were expecting it too.
There is nothing to great, or too small for God. He uses all things for the Good. Just believing him is enough. Trusting him is more. Surrendering all to him with all your heart and soul and mind is best.
I gave it all up to him who knows every hair on my head, and knows me better than I do myself.
Nothing is impossible. Nothing. As for me I keepon keepin on...leaning on God. He is the only thing that keeps me straight, and keeps me from falling over.
So many miracles, so many days, hours, minutes, and moments. Every one of them a special gift. We are his gift to each other. We are his living miracles. Our worth, and wonders are all found in him. I'm so grateful he knows me his precious speck. Yes we all have miracles everyday. His love is the greatest miracle of all!!! What an incredible year . How many miracles? 366+. Each day I wake up, live, laugh, love, pray, eat, sleep is a miracle. You are a miracle too, just waiting to reveal itself to others. Let God show you who he is, who you are, and what he can do with a speck. It will truly amaze you.
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